May 12, 2011

I can't help but notice I'm at bit at war with myself

I just realized that I contradict myself on a daily basis. It comes as a result of me having way to many things to do. I wish so badly that I had more hours in my day so I could do all the things that I absolutely HAVE TO do every day, such as work on laundry and other stuff around the house, fill out and do all the crazy requirements for scholarship applications, (deadlines are killah), apply for jobs, jump through the way-too-tall-for-my-short-leg hoops that are required for applying for jobs, go to work at commerce for reasons I don't quite understand, study for the ACT, and above all, study my scriptures. Because of the time difference between Seattle and Virginia, I have to call my advisor at 7am if I have any random questions. (I am never at a shortage of those. I'm sure she just loves me).
Then I realize that all of this, (with the exception of doing my laundry), is so I will be prepared for school in August. I don't even hardly work at commerce anymore, I just use my big desk and nice computer here so I can focus more on all these crazy applications!
The contradiction is that I catch myself complaining (in my head) about all the stuff I need to get done, then I wish I had more time so I could do more of these things that drive me nuts. Why would I want more hours to be stressed out about getting things done?! What am I thinking!?

Is it this hard for everyone to go to college?

I think I'll go to the Oregon Coast this weekend. It always helps put things in perspective.

1 comment:

Gr. Nette said...

Yes, it is. Sorry to say. One of the reasons why people like to employ college graduates is they know about all the red tape, hoop-jumping and garbage one has to go through to get that degree, so they figure you must be tough to get there.
You are tough.